My thoughts on College Football

(Note: this was written immediately after a heart wrenching loss to a mediocre team, there may have been a few angry tears swiped away as I wrote this)

I am a little wary about lifelong commitments in my personal life. little did i realize that i signed up for one over 7 years ago, and i am certainly feeling the strain.

your allegiance to your alma mater can run the gamut from  a casual fling to a full blown marriage. that relationship is established sometimes before birth, sometimes from the first time you step on the campus (me) and feel a tweak on your heart, like this is your new home. Your allegience to the sports team (ehemm football) evolves the same way, and can be casual or committed. once you have committed, you cannot get out. it is like a marriage that cannot be annulled and you cannot be divorcd from. it can be BRUTAL, gut wrenching (literally) and so highly emotional it can be overwhelming and completely overtake your mood on certain fall saturdays. You feel disappointment when your team (spouse) doesnt live up to the expectations you have set for them, overjoyed when they do well. but you rise and fall together, like a never ending tide ebbing and flowing.

right now my tides are ebbing towards gut wrenching and disappointing. but the tide and the wave, and the underlying rip currents are interlinked, never to be separated no matter how much you want to. my life would have much less stress and grief if i wasnt compelled by a force greater than me to plan my fall weekend activities around the time and place that the garnet and gold of the florida state university will take to the turf. i would feel less disappointment, anxiety and true heartbreak when all the expectations that were set by out side forces are sorely mistaken, and you find yourself below .500 6 weeks into the greatest time of the year. the comittment was solidified many years ago, when i was too young and naive to realise the lifelong impact this relationship would take. for better or for worse, i am tied to the florida state seminoles in all of their rookie mistakes, bad calls, missed catches and lack of common sense plays. i denounce them on a weekly basis, trying desperately to find another team to cheer on without having heart palpitations and a pile of ripped coasters at the table.but you dont feel that pull with a team that isnt your own. there is no chemisty with the other team, no semblence of the 7+ year committed relationship with fsu. it doesnt work. so week after week, play after play, disappointment after triumph, we are on this long road together. forever. 

Scalp Em!