Birthday Thoughts

Tomorrow is my birthday.

I will be 26 years old.

My past few birthdays have brought up some anxiety and restless thoughts that I normally wouldn't associate with a happy celebration time.

I can't figure out why birthdays feel like lonely times, maybe because of the expectations associated with birthdays. That the whole day is supposed to be full of magic and presents and surprises, like it was during childhood. A day that was 100% about you, no worries or concerns :) My parents made sure I always had a great birthday: coming to have lunch with me in elementary school (which was a HUGE deal), bringing chick fila breakfast, balloons and cupcakes for me and my friends in middle and high school, and surprising me in Tallahassee on my 21st birthday in college. 

Adult birthdays have lost their luster, and I don't like that.

I wish I could still feel all that excitement, magic and anticipation, but I don't know how to get it back.

I am really excited for what my 26th year of life has to offer: travelling to different places, getting involved in more activities (triathalon? junior league? volunteering?), trying new ways to stay in shape, and be happy, healthy and fit.

I am going to make it a great year!

Bring it on 26, I am ready for you :)

I wish I had some pictures of me on past birthdays, but they aren't on my computer :(