I feel strange. I have felt a little off since yesterday. Several strange small things happened yesterday, none of them serious (a rude comment, hearing about the engagement of an ex, a misunderstanding) but all combining has me feel iffy last night and today. My feelings seem to compound on themselves, and come out when I try to have quiet, alone time. I can't think of a better word for it than iffy, but it brings with it frustration, anxiety and irritability. The result is feeling disconnected, sad, lonely and lost. I really hate admitting that I feel lonely, because I love spending time alone and being independent, but this feeling of loneliness can be pretty hard to deal with. I always try to convince myself that I need to get a dog, until I feel guilty that I wouldn't have much time to spend with it (one day I will crack and get one). I am not sure how to deal with it sometimes, the only thing I know how to do is try to distract myself until it passes. I can't even express the feeling in words, which upsets me even more. Maybe I am being hypersensitive. This post makes no sense, and I don't like it. I feel like a complete lunatic.
I am going to brave the crowds in Orlando for NBA All Star Weekend and try to leave my funk behind.
"Let Go and Let God"
Breathe
Hugs. You aren't the only one in the blog-o-sphere feeling this way. I read on someone else's blog the very same thing and obviously, we know I feel this way too. Hang in there. Something great is bound to happen to pick you up for a little while.
ReplyDeleteSorry about the ex being engaged. One of my biggest fears right now in addition to him getting her knocked up. FML.
Have fun @ All-Star! I'm working for Cartoon Network tomorrow and Sunday @ the Jam. <3
Thanks Shannon :) I have thought through some of my feelings and enjoyed time with my friends. Have fun at the Jam Session!
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